i cried today. One thing I have learned about myself today is that I dont cry very often. I cant even remember the last time I cried at all. Although a really good sad movie will do it to me, or if someone else looses it I have problems keeping it in, but in general, I am mostly a happy girl. BUT, the last week or so I have been thinking ALOT about this last year, and got sad. There was a time when photography was ALL I did, thought about, dreamed about…..I even ATE at the computer and fell asleep in front of it. It was hard being the bread winner when Ted didn’t have a job, and it was even harder not being there all the time with my girls. I feel like the first year of Samantha’s life was so busy, stressed, and flat out depressing. Yet, through it all, she is the happiest and most snuggly baby I have ever known. I am so beyond blessed to have her and Hailey. I thought I knew what REAL unconditional love was, until I had a baby and then realized I had no concept of it at all. Life sure did change quick, in all sorts of ways. And now, life needs to change again, because I dont want to let any precious time to slip through my fingertips. I will still need to work to help sustain our little fam, but its time for balance and more happy times. Thanks to everyone’s kind words on facebook today, and especially to my sister Tami who listened to me bawl and helped pick me up again.
happy birthday to my Sammy Jo. if you want to go look at pics of her from when she was a wee thing, click here
i do apologize…i photoshopped these SO quick and now i am really looking at them and did a terrible job. i will post more on FB soon when i can really make them pretty
i even got a nice little love present in the mail from a girl i have never met today. i did her the smallest favor ever and she sent me happiness in a box (or two)i totally got the better end of the deal.
